My name is Shay and this is the story of how the clothing brand Love So Divine came about.
It all started in 2015 when my whole life was shook up by the effects of how condemned I had felt for so many years. I have lived a life full of shame and guilt, isolating myself due to not being good enough. I never knew love. This hurt I had inside of me, had effected my relationships, marriage, finances, parenting and even my health. It’s taken years to learn that I need my fathers love daily to survive.
Growing up without a father and majority of the time, not having a parent figure at all, makes it difficult for a person to trust or see that anyone loves them, especially a God who seemed to be so far away, and to my mind he had allowed all the hurtful things that had happened happen to me. I never thought he could love me if no one else did. This left me believing I was too messed up in so many ways for him to accept me. It wasn't until 2015 that I began to see that the life I knew, was only full of hurt and It became too much to continue.
From this point and years to come, i began to experience a love i never knew. I began to understand his acceptance and love weren't based off my behavior, but it was in my worst moments that I got to see God as my father, who on a daily basis saw me fail and fall time after time. Instead of him leaving me, he embraced me. He would lift me up and tell me he's not mad at me, even to the extent that he gave me permission to be where I have put myself in my own doings. This is the "new life" we have been given in Christ and this is what true freedom looks like.
Grace (the person of Jesus and the unearned and undeserved favor of God) came to give us this “new life” we now have as sons and daughters. We can now never be separated from the love of our father.
We will always be growing in this understanding, but my hope is, for others and myself, is to be convinced more and more, that he is a good father, who wants to show us the intensity of his love and acceptance, not just once but daily. It is my desire to make known this "new life" we now have.
The gift of no condemnation has given me true peace. This is a gift I never knew or even heard of, but it caused me to "BE LOVED" and it moved me into something I never knew I was called into.
In Dec. 2020 as I was driving I heard the words "Love So Divine," at that time I didn't know what it had meant, so I wrote it down and left it alone. At the end of 2021 I was brought back to it and shown that it would be a Clothing Brand birthed from my journey of learning how to be loved, also that the dove would be connected to the words representing "new life." It wasn't until 2023 that I was moved into establishing the Brand.
Im just an ordinary person chosen by love and given a vision. This vision is now being established. It was birthed out of a true life experience of the hardest season of my life, an 8 year process of learning to be a daughter for the very first time. Its not enough to just "know" his love, but it needs to be experienced and only then, do you get to see him as "abba" instead of just "God."
"From death to life, an orphan to a son"
Romans 8:15 "For you did not receive the bondage again to fear, but you received the spirit of adoption by whom we cry out, Abba, Father."
I pray that this isn't just another product with a saying or scripture on it, but the beginning of a life long revelation of the intimacy the father wants to have with his children.